Monthly Archives: February 2015

Some positivity!

Beer and potato chips is an absolutely valid dinner on a Friday night. Nutritionally maybe not so healthy, but social-emotionally vital to health, especially done in the company of wonderful friends who love me, who see me, who accept me … Continue reading

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Can I write this?

I’ve been feeling guilty and anxious all day. For many reasons…. one of them being what I wrote last night. So instead of fighting the urge to go back and delete, or edit to make the picture more flattering, I … Continue reading

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Developing awareness is frustrating!

It is. Because I am aware of how I am scrambling inside, scurrying around busy bee to avoid avoid avoid emotions. How I think I am avoiding anger and under the anger has got to be sadness; at this point … Continue reading

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In the gut (part 2)

“Re: Stacks” by Bon Iver Everything that happens is from now on this is pouring rain this is paralyzed…

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In the gut

The hardest, longest distance to travel is the twelve inches between my brain and my heart. And my gut. I often start with my brain though, because it’s a way to get at a “why” of it all. I read … Continue reading

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Magical thinking

Grief is a complicated state. We all carry parts of ourselves from different ages trying to understand how someone so loved can be here one moment and gone forever the next. How do we make sense of it all? Age … Continue reading

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On “How to Disappear Completely”

There are so many things that we don’t know about eating disorders. Culture? Society? Biology? Genetics? I have been obsessively searching for the “why” for nearly ten years. Society on the one hand makes sense to me. Just look at … Continue reading

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