Tag Archives: grief

full weight of everything

The reality is that no one yelled. No one hit. No one was overtly cruel or intentionally harmful. Violence? Neglect? Abuse? No, never, these were not things that happened in our home growing up. We read books. We played board … Continue reading

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who knows why

Music in the heart tonight:   the only way in is through / and I am trying to get through … who knows why / things wind up the way they do

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She doesn’t want to run away this time

Six years ago on New Year’s Eve a dear friend experienced a sexual assault. A year and a half later she started talking about it but stopped when it became too much, too overwhelming. Other symptoms took over, requiring attention … Continue reading

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the little things

One day you notice it doesn’t seem so hard anymore. A scary, confusing dream, but you didn’t wake up shaking in sweat, in terror. A train ride with your boss and you find yourself overwhelmed by gratitude that you get … Continue reading

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how it ends

I have been thinking a lot about endings lately. Breakups, death, jobs, families, divorce, friendships, loss. Everything ends—impermanence is one of the few things we know for certain on this earth. I think people tend to recall experiences in the … Continue reading

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flashing back and returning- 2

I just gotta say, I love my therapist. Not putting her on a pedestal or anything like that, I just am overcome with gratitude to her. She is so calm, and open, and compassionate. No matter what state I come … Continue reading

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update

I have been feeling significantly more alive over the last few weeks than I have in quite some time. I’m not sure what has caused the shift (oh, resist the urge to know why!!) but I’m sure of at least … Continue reading

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