Tag Archives: perfectionism

Rattled frazzled Wednesday

I had been enjoying the slow month of July at work. Several projects and deliverables would be on my plate shortly, but I had no deadlines on my calendar yet and a minimal sense of urgency. In the past, empty … Continue reading

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Developing a growth mindset

I am the only student in my Kindergarten class who starts the year in September knowing how to read. I don’t think too much of it, but some adults, especially Mom, have told me I am so smart, and I … Continue reading

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The Trap

The trap is thinking that having horrible scary thoughts makes me a horrible scary person. The trap is believing that what I think and feel is reality. The tricky part is that the fear, anxiety, terror, shame– all of these … Continue reading

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Progress

When I was 17, I was required to go to a psycho-educational support group. My memories of these weekly summer evenings is almost non-existent. I have a few images, mostly from a bird’s-eye, depersonalized vantage point. A bunch of teenage … Continue reading

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Out of control

Gloria Steinem has become a motto in my life: “The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off.” I am so pissed off. I am so angry. Frustrated. Screaming and punching walls. I am so angry. … Continue reading

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Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself

Am I boiling up in anger and resentment and agitation inside because I am now seeing a new truth to a situation? Or is it because it is the middle of November? Or because I’m recognizing how paralyzing perfectionism is … Continue reading

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Learning from mistakes

I had a very wise supervisor last year. She wound up becoming a bit of a mentor, too, though I suspect that was not her intention. It was a stressful year and often work situations would dreg up emotional pain … Continue reading

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